My Life

Right now, life has been a little hectic. My week didn't start out too good, but yesterday was a good day. School has started and I'm running from class to class to work to Sanger and back. It's constant going! Sometimes it gets a little stressful, but I'm trying to find ways to deal with my stress in a more effective way. If you have any ideas, feel free to let me know.

So, I'm taking this class called statics and dynamics, it's the hardest class I have so far. Only because the homework load is tremendous. So far, I've spent 4 to 6 hours on each homework assignment, and we have these assignemnets twice a week. Thing is, even in that four to six hours, I have not been able to complete the assignment. I turn them in and will get credit for what is done though. I decided that I have to find a way to get ahead, and get my homework done on the weekend the week before or something.

Work has been a little stressful because my hard drive started going bad, and I called Dell to send me a new one. They said they would have someone call and make an appoitnment to replace it and that it would be a couple of days, but they never called, and I was not at work the next day. They came while I was gone and replaced it before I had a chance to get all of my files. I spent quite a bit of time this week on the phone trying to get the hard drive back, but to no avail.

My mom had her surgery, is home and is doing better. She had to go to the emergency room this weekend and her leg has swolen up. She is worried she has a blood clot or someting but the doctor said she did not. Pray for her.

My Grandma has been staying with my mom this whole time and she is ready to go home now, I'm going to take her half way this evening when I get off work. It will be nice, I like the drive to Oklahoma.

This weekend I have to rent a blower machine and buy insulation for one of my rent houses, the poor people that live there, their electric bill was almost $600.00. The renters at my other rent house have told me thay are moving as of April 1st, so I have to find new renters too.

My apartment is coming along pretty good. I have my bedroom done and a futon in the living room, I have a drafting table in the dining room, with a chair from outside, but it's cozy. My parents are giving me their kitchen table, which I will paint along with the futon frame a matte black and then distress it. That will be fun!

I have to go now - love you all!!

My second try at Def Poetry.....

Stop it,
sit still, don’t move
be quiet, speak up,
hush, listen, don’t fight,
don’t give me that look,
go to your room, stay here,
think! Don’t look at me,
sit up straight, don’t slouch,
you shouldn’t feel that way,
you shouldn’t say those things.....
Now the time has come
you must face this world....
Now Go! Think, decide,
have an opinion, make
good decisions, be all you can be....
What can I be?
How come I couldn’t be me yesterday,
but today it’s okay.
You know what? I was okay yesterday
I am okay today and I will be okay tomorrow.
I am me. It doesn’t matter what you think.
It doesn’t matter how you feel about me.
It doesn’t matter if my skin is darker than yours,
or If I love who you say I shouldn’t, or if I feel how
you don’t think I should, or if I stand on top of
buildings and shout the words of Poe.
Edgar Allen that is, as if you didn’t know.
It doesn’t matter. You are not writing
the definition of who I am or who I will be.
Put down your pen.

Mom's Home

Mom came home from the hospital today! Yeah!! She is feeling lots better. She is still in pain, but doing much better than yesterday and much better than the days prior to surgery. I'm so glad she is better.

My family is so great. My sister, brother, grandmother, dad and myself were all at the hospital while my mom was in surgery. It was good to be all together. I know it was not necessarily the best of circumstances, but it was nice to be with my family. I love them so much!

a Poem

The way I feel,
It is unreal
I know my heart must give
Give a little
I mean like a balloon
Give under pressure,
Stretch…..And retract.
If not it would be in pieces.
There is no pain like heart ache,
heart break.
There is no way
to respond
to betrayal
That will leave you
with a sense of rest
or assurance
That will give you back lost trust
That will silence the roar
That will bring the hush
No way, no will,
no weary traveler to bring a magic potion
A potion that will erase the scars, the scabs,
the massive hole
A hole that is not closed,
that remains,
and will continue to be exposed
to wind and fire
and dust and rain,
and you end up with a big muddy hole
filled with pain.

My mom

My mom hurt her back about two weeks ago, poor thing, she is in so much pain. The doctor said she needs surgery, but we have been believing for a miracle. So my prayer tonight is that she wakes up and feels great, I told her she will be doing jumping jacks in the morning and I really hope she does. My mom is one awesome lady, always believing, always full of encouragement, offering hope, and standing on faith and God's promises. I know it's hard when she is in so much pain, I love her so much and wish I could take all of her pain away. Please pray for her, and I will pray for you!

It's been a long time.....

It's been 3 weeks since you've heard from me....wow, that's a long time and lots has happened in these three weeks. I moved to Ft. Worth. I know, I've been saying Arlington, but in reality my address is in Ft. Worth. It is on the far east side of Ft. Worth, just outside of Arlington. I thought it was Arlington at first, but it's not. I moved a week and a half ago, and it has been different. Living alone definitely has both its ups and downs. It's hard for me because I like to stay busy and have lots going on around me and I only know about three people in the area. I had to shop by myself this weekend(Sunday anyway, I was in Oklahoma and shopped with my Aunt on Saturday) I spent most of Sunday alone. It was nice, and very good for me, but sometimes it's kind of lonely.

My apartment is small, it is one bedroom and I don't have any living room furniture yet. My mom gave me a futon, but I haven't gotten it from her house to mine yet. I finally bought groceries this weekend, so I'm no longer living on air and water. Well, I am, I mean I still breathe and drink water, but a few more items have been added. I actually haven't eaten at the apartment yet, I don't have any chairs, so there is no where to sit, but Diet Dr. Pepper for breakfast and dinner is becoming a consistency.

Well, my brother said he could help me post some pictures to my blog, so hopefully I can get with him soon and we can figure it out, then you can see my apartment....It's not all that, but it's becoming more homie everyday..........I'll be back soon!